As I was sitting in the dark with Annie, my mind did a slide show of all that we have been through together in the last eleven years....our wedding, trips we've taken, births of our children, losing Joseph, sickness, houses we have lived in, decisions we have made, job changes TJ has made within the bank, vehicles we've owned, none of which I could even imagine that night long ago.
Time. It's funny to me. There are times when I feel like we are still newlyweds. Then there are times when I feel like we are just keeping our heads above water, struggling to make it through the mononaty of our days, the routine of life, and it feels like forever ago when we were just dating. I wish I could freeze time. I'd like to savor the moments we are living right now.
I am so grateful for them.....
I wish that I would have been given a little glimpse of these four beautiful people, eleven years ago. It's all been SO WORTH it.
And when life gets busy, and messy, when I feel anxious about the future, their health, or their schooling, when I get frustrated that we have no one to watch our children so TJ and I can go out to dinner together or when I am up all night with a new baby, or a sick child and my eyelids feel like they weigh twenty pounds each....I will remember that they are worth it to me. Having TJ and our children are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I guess the BEST thing that happened was that TJ came to my Halloween party eleven years ago.....and that he had fun playing charades!